Random Thoughts: Still God

My last two entries have been about the awesome wonder that comes about when God steps in and does something extraordinary. I believe God uses these moments to rejuvenate our faith, to make a statement of the Godness of God, to let us know He's still near. But what happens in the inbetween? The times when the extraodinary is not happening? After these last couple of experiences you'd think I'd be set for awhile as far as my willingness to trust God. We shall see...

This morning, I woke up feeling sick and my first thought was "God why is this happening to me." I hadn't gotten much sleep during the night and I had to go take my first major exam of the semester. I managed to get out of bed and start my day. My test was first thing in the morning but when I went to take it, I couldn't concentrate and my mind felt foggy. So I complete the test to see my grade (everything's computerized) which was the lowest grade I've ever made on a nursing exam. Again I ask God, "Why is this happening?"

I went back to my room and basically wasted away the rest of the morning wallowing in self-pity when all of the sudden, a thought hit me. What am I doing? I had this picture in my head of God standing over in the corner with a smirk on his face saying sarcastically, "Are you done yet?" Yes I was done.

I was reminded once again, that God is God all the time. He's still God when I bomb a test. He's still God when my health fails. He's still God when I act stupid. It is not the content of my day that determines my relationship with God but my daily willingness to trust regardless of what happens. Got a down day? He's still God.